I have a host of things in my inventory from a time in my SL that’s a big blank to me. So as I stand here looking fashiony, I’m going to mention some things and it’s neither a cry for attention nor an excuse. It’s just you see, back in the fall I missed a lot of things.
In the course of trying to keep a handle on my inventory I keep finding things that I can’t recall ever getting. I’m beginning to worry that lovely people who I blog for might think I don’t love them, or didn’t like their things. This is probably likely as I tend to blog daily but my madness is without reason usually when choosing what I blog. I’m telling my story of those days, and so if something got passed over, alas it often stays passed over.
I was trying to think, some time ago, how I had possibly missed an event. How is it I didn’t attend? It was a truly loved event, filled with creators I admire and not one I’m likely to miss. Upon further review I realized- it was the fall.
In the fall you see, both of my parents died.
They had been sick, and within two months I found myself an adult orphan and there was a time when even if I was logged in and blogging, I simply wasn’t here. I was here, but I wasn’t present.
I don’t recall this dress or if I ever blogged it. In fact, starting September 1 I went on autopilot in both lives. I stayed there for months. I did my best to stay plugged in, to focus and do the things that were required. I have blogged a ton. Some of it was sincere, some of it was me phoning it in and I’m sure you noticed that.
I vowed when the new year came that rather than make random goals and resolutions I was simply going to be. Being is a huge thing. Being takes commitment. Being involves being present and you must actual participate in your life for it to work. I vowed to own myself, and know my worth and stop making emotional investments that were bankrupting me. I am determined to make investments where there is a return, and in those – I will make them deeply and with my whole self.
So this is me saying thank you for coming along with Gidge these months as she tried to recover. Thank you Winter, who reached out of a years long silence, across a sea of potential enmity to comfort me when my days were the worst. Thank you constant friends who never left me and were always there, even when I just needed nothing but to not be alone.
I will never recover, I will never heal.
But I am here, and so are you. And that’s pretty damn awesome.
Gidge is Wearing:
Earrings: (Donna Flora) FRANCESCA earring
Necklace: (Donna Flora) FRANCESCA necklace diamonds
Rings: (Yummy) Birthstone Ring – October – Opal (Blogger Copy)
(Yummy) True Fate Ring – Gold – Opal
Shoes: YS&YS Rapallo Chic Pure (Maitreya)
Hair: .LeLutka.Aubrey hair.FIT.A
Skin: Glam Affair
Head: .LeLutka.Mesh Head-ARIA v1.3
Dress: Fission: Gina dress-Silver (Maitreya)
Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.4
Eyes: poetic color eyes by LL – summer – lavender field (s)
Shadows: Fiat Lux Triple Projector <a href=”https://marketplace.secondlife.com/p/Fiat-Lux-Triple-Projector/7802068″ rel=”nofollow”>marketplace.secondlife.com/p/Fiat-Lux-Triple-Projector/78…</a>