Are you good at admitting you’re wrong? It’s a skill. When I’m working, toiling at my desk and blogging, shooting, styling, I have no problem admitting something’s wrong. “Look at that intersection” or “Oh god why did I think that went together” or whatever it is I’ve done wrong, I am ok with admitting it. I’m good with accepting it and moving on.
Personally I’m terrible at it. I hate realizing I’m wrong about someone. I hate being wrong about who they are, or their intentions.
I hate it so much that I can be known to ignore it – for years. I had a friend once who was like an albatross. She was vile, she was hateful, and she had the power to hurt other people harshly and did so when it suited her. But she was nice TO ME. It was only after I had gotten to know her that I realized how much she enjoyed hurting other people, twisting the truth, and smearing people via social media. “But you don’t know her personally,” I’d say sheepishly to those who railed against me for being friends with her. “You don’t know her like I do.” While it was true that we had the sort of laughs and fun friends have together, what really kept us going was that I didn’t like admitting I was wrong.
But I was.
I’m bad about it but with time I think I’m growing. I’m learning that no, I can’t just let that stuff go. I’m also learning that even if I’m slow to realize what/who someone is, that when I do it’s best to step away quietly. You don’t need to have a huge scene. You don’t need to announce to the world you’re wrong. Learn it, grow, and move on.
In the last year I’ve learned that some people who I thought were dumb assholes are really just humans who have said some stupid shit in the past. I’ve learned that some people that I thought were amazing are really just dumb assholes.
And through it all, I’m just me. A silly girl who likes to take pictures and wear pretty things.
I’m probably a dumb asshole too.
But I’m trying, Ringo.
Gidge is Wearing:
Rings: (Yummy) Birthstone Ring – October – Opal (Blogger Copy)
(Yummy) True Fate Ring – Gold – Opal
Body: -Belleza- Venus V3
Head: .LeLutka.Mesh Head-ARIA v1.3
Skin: Deetalez Susanna
Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Mackenzie Mesh Hair (BOOBS)
Skirt: Blueberry – Kyla – Mini Skirts – Strapped – Venus
Bodysuit: Blueberry – Lida – Bodysuit – Venus
Bracelet: Cae :: Sweetheart :: Bracelet
Kitty: lassitude & ennui Flutterpaws vintage cat (wear me!) RARE
Eyes: Mayfly – Liquid Light Mesh Eye (October Morning, w4)
Shoes: R.icielli – VIVI High Heels for Belleza / Black#Gold